Bid Sheets, they are the blood of an auction. The block that everything is built on. With the bid sheet a bidder places their name and in a silent auction hundreds of items can be sold through this information exchanging. It is my company's job to help non-profit organizations to raise money by helping them auction donated items off. To do that you need to have bid sheets. There was something wrong; as soon as I got to the Woodland Hills Hilton I knew something was wrong. There was a room filled with baskets and a cart rimmed with Gift Certificates which had all been donated to the cause and here I was with an envelope carrying 8 Bid sheets for their items...Thats 105 items next to my 8 bid sheets?
So many thoughts hit me like a barrage of bullets each one causing more and more horror. Where did all those bid sheets go? I thought I had all the bid sheets! I'm 35 minutes away from the office! Would I have enough to make them all and get them back? What if the bid sheet program doesn't work! Should I hand write them? If I didn't get these bid sheets this whole event could come to a crashing halt and it would all be my fault, because I didn't print them!! There is so much to do, I was so overwhelmed. I needed to arrange the items, I needed to make sure that the the bid sheets matched up to their items, and I didn't have those. I needed to answer questions from my crew as well as the organization. I had to change, get the Mic ready, find out about live auction items....At this point I was on my way back to the office; my stomach was cramping, my breathing had become sporadic and shallow and with each bump in the road came an insatiable need to vomit.
It was 3:08 when I finally got back to the office. I had been given a 5:30pm deadline to get back to the hotel with all the bid sheets and set them up before the event started at 6 o'clock. I had attempted to calm myself down for the most part but it was so hard to get a positive thought in or to really listen to what I was trying to tell myself "Its okay, it'll be fine" So many thoughts about getting away from this whole situation ran through my head, "What if I ran for it, just took off?" "What if I knock out because I'm hyperventilating?! I do feel kind of dizzy!" But I knew I had to get this done and I had to do the best that I could. I knew that even if this didn't work out it wasn't the end of the world...It took me an hour and a half to finish printing all their items out but I was already on by 5:15 giving me and my team more than enough time to set everything up.
I have never been so stressed in my life, never been so scared of not making a deadline, not even at school or with my parents. But it worked out just like I thought it would when I told myself that it would be okay, what was funny was that I still couldn't get over the feelings I was having, couldn't stop myself from acting the way I did- as calm as I may have looked I remember feeling the chemical processes that were taking place to cause my close to metal break down!
Stress is the response to physical and mental experiences that come from the environment around you. In many instances it gives animals the ability to react in milliseconds to dangerous encounters, allowing them to move into an appropriate position to avoid harm. Its interesting to observe that humans for the most part are different then animals for this very reason. While animals will use stress to avoid situations, humans will use stress to focus on a situation. It has become a hallmark of this generation to take advantage of the benefits of stress, while at the same time dooming ourselves by being over dependent on a dose that should be taken moderately....
So how is it that we are supposed to take care of business without overwhelming ourselves with stress? I say ask yourself this: What would you say that the most common reason for stress in your life is? What about that thing or person or situation makes you stress out?
I've learned through my own meditation and understanding of metaphysical as well as psychological healing that releaving any kind of negative force in your life starts with identifying the source of the negativity. "You can't ask someone to leave unless you know their name". Now this can be harder than its sounds. For instance lets answer these questions in a hypothetical:
"The most common reason for stress in my life is my job; I work hard and don't get any recognition for it, bending over backwards to try an accommodate my co-workers and get a promotion but nothings working. Whats stressing my out is that I'm not getting anywhere and I'm run down tired and depressed!"
You should be fully honest with yourself about the situation and what it is that bothers you. Many people will say "I work hard and bend over backwards, but thats just what you have to do" NO IT ISN'T! If you want to become the person who wakes up one day and says "I haven't done anything with my life" then by all means continue on with your miserable or even semi- miserable existence. I know that if I was not happy with where I am I wouldn't be where I am. I would quit and find something better, already I can hear people saying "Well thats not realistic, what about finances, what about bills?" and I will answer What about your happiness? Does that mean nothing to you? I would rather be happy to pay my bills than paying my bills and not be happy. Being miserable about work or school because I was stressing out about it all the time. Which brings us back to stress.
Stress can be very useful but it is also very inhibiting. I love my life and I appreciate even the little things so the stress that I experience is rather healthy in comparison to the guy that cuts me off every day of the week because he is constantly in a rush. I hope he really likes his job and is not actually stressing because he's late, but nine out of ten times thats the case.
Appreciation is the key to a stress free life. There is always something about a situation to appreciate and be grateful for. "Well, what about making the dead line of a report due in less than 12 hours" Well, how about being grateful for being given the opportunity to be able to participate in the project in the first place! The smallest things is all it takes, if you can scuff at an idea instead of really considering it and pondering it you future is dim, miserable and lifeless. Its speaks of a stagnant order one that may last for years but will end in mutiny and anger :-D
Inspiration comes from many places, and the heart is the most sacred of them
-Markus
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